Its 9.15am now and I have the sudden urged to blog. Have you ever done something for someone and felt happy and satisfied after doing it? Seeing other people smile because of your acts of service, will that make you happy and have the feeling of wanting to do more? That is what I am feeling right now. I slept at 2am yesterday because I have to finish my brothers folio that I promised him to do. I was a little upset at first because he dint say that the folio must be finished by this coming Tuesday, but then because I promised him and he is my little baby brother afterall, I would sacrifice my time to finish it up for him. After I'm done with it, I felt very happy.
Allow me to tell you another story. My mother promised to give me RM10 per week for cleaning up the house. That includes vacuuming the floor, mopping the floor, fold the clothes, clean dogs poop and blah blah blah. I was pretty excited but then Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday had past and I have not received the RM10, but then I still do it wholeheartedly. Its one of the few days where I would clean the house wholeheartedly, thinking that I wont be getting the RM10 already. Want to know whats in my mind that makes me want to to this? Knowing that God will do it if He was placed in my position, knowing that I want to be like my Holy Father, I decided to do it. Not because I have to do it, but because I want to do it for my mother. Unexpectedly, I received the RM10 the next day. God is good! See how this little things can makes me happy.
There is a lot more different stories which have one thing that is similar which is putting God in every acts of service I offer. I have to wake up at 6am this morning because I decided that I want to make breakfast for my whole family. I could be sleeping for another half an hour, wake up, get ready and drop everyone off to their respective places. I made egg sandwich with cheese. It was a lot of work and time is running pretty fast but I managed to do it with LOVE!
There is a lot of reason to help other but if the reason is to gain fame, attention or money, it is not right. We all can hide from everybody in the world except for one person and He is just right above us. In everything I do, the glory is always to God. I rather receive a victory which is permanent in His time than something that could only make me happy temporary. =) Try it! Se if it makes you happy today!
Ending this post with a verse. Matthew 25:40 says, The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me'
Have a blessed day everyone! <3
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Saturday, September 29, 2012
THE FALL IN VENICE
I have not expected that this day will even happen, that I will be attending INTI's Prom 2012 as I am a girl who is not really into this kind of events. The reason why I have to be in college is too attend classes or do assignments. Other than that, don't expect me to do or participate in anything. haha. That's how lazy I am. LOL. This is also my very first blog post which has tons of pictures in it and no, its not about whats in my mind.
I decided to blog about this because I have been longing to have a weekend like this with the people whom I love. Being with the people whom you are comfortable with and whom you can just be fully yourself and talk about just anything and everything.
I attend this event after one of my girlfriends whom is NOT studying in INTI managed to persue me into attending the prom. Of course, another reason is because May Chee, a high-school friend of ours, participate in the Mr. and Mrs Inti. How could we not go and support her? She manage to get in into the finalist.
The theme of the event is " The Fall in Venice ". I liked the theme, somehow. I think it is very unique. The opening ceremony was good.
My attire for the night.
A black and gold cocktail dress from Just Wardrobe and a sky-high Aldo heels, borrowed from a friend.
Mummy gave me this dress. Hair tied up with a pair of small earrings.
The people whom I went with.
from the left : Zhi Xian, Najah, Pei Ying and myself.
Feels like high school all over again! This is the people whom I attend my Form 5 prom with and after 2 years, we attended another prom together. =)
This is just the pictures we took while we are stuck in the jam.
On our way to G-Hotel!
The many faces of ours! haha
Pictures taken throughout the event. Did not manage to take pictures of whats happening during the prom because it was a little bit far from where I was sitting.
There were lucky draws, games, performance from the finalist of Mr and Mrs INTI, and not to forget free dance.
This are the people whom I know besides my girlfriends.
From the left : Andrina, Yong Sze and Sharon, Ashleigh and Anthony.
The reason why I am there..=) <3
The FOUR of us!.=)
My dinner, it was a buffet dinner. Lots of delicious food. From pasta to lagsania, fried rice, beef, sotong, spring roll and many more.
Not to forget, our Mrs. INTI. So very proud of her and she winning makes this event more special!
CONGRATULATIONS KIM MAY CHEE! <3
Stayed over Pei Ying house, and we slept at 5am and woke up at 10am this morning. Got ready and while waiting for the rest to get prepared, PY tied hair for me. It is called " Watterfall braid" Simply beautiful and I liked it.
On our way to Harvest Inn for lunch.
Decided to do something in the afternoon and tada.
OREO BALL COATED WITH SEMI-SWEET CHOCOLATE!
It was mouth watering!
PY then send us home. It was a beautiful weekend with just my girlfriends. Being with them makes me happy and as well as allow me to forget that there is a world out there. Time passed really fast and its time to face reality. But, I am looking forward to attend mass tomorrow. Feels like forever actually. I had a beautiful weekend. I hope you guys do to! Goodnight!
Sunday, September 23, 2012
RECEIVED A LOVE SONG
Hello. I am back from Ipoh. No words can describe my weekend in Ipoh. Its beyond amazing. I have been longing to get out of Penang for a while even if its just Ipoh, but its an awesome weekend with my family and time for myself. Its the moment where you need to go some place where you can close your eyes, listen to music and think, does not matter whether its good or bad.
I had an amazing week physically but not emotionally and mentally good. I don't feel the peace in me anymore. I am always cautious in what I am doing. Everything does not come naturally for me anymore. There is a lot in my mind until I do not know what is it that keeps pulling me down. Until now, I still do not know what is it that is throwing me to the ground but what I do know is I felt peace in my heart.
I guess I need to be reminded once in a while, in fact everybody needs to be reminded as well in one way or another that they are worth more than anything or anybody else. All I do when I reach Ipoh is find a good comfortable couch, lie down, put on my earphones, plugged it in to my phone, let the songs play , close my eyes and think. Questions like " why am I put in this situation? " " Why is it that I have to go through the same situation with different people? " " Where is the one? " was in my head.
and guess what? Soon before I know it, a song entitled "Shelter" by Corrinne May is played and I can say that it is the only song that put a stop to what I am thinking and concentrate on the lyrics to the song. I suddenly feel at peace and I smiled. Teared a little bit but I quickly wipe it off because there are people in the house. Call me crazy but after that, I decided to get back up, chill with my cousin, hang out with sister and not just lay down and be some anti-social freak. haha
Corrinne May is a Singaporean who is currently based in LA to pursue her music career. She is a singer, song-writer, plays guitar and piano as well. She is a Christian and have already published 4 albums. =)
I am currently inlove with her songs from the album called " Beautiful Seed" . I would like to share with you the lyrics. It is really meaningful. Everytime I listen to the song, I feel alive. =)
What's wrong, whats getting you down
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red
I know you've been through rough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at tour door
You don't have to be alone
Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend
We share a bond
You and I we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone
Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend
It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll
call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend
.............Blessed Day................ <3 <3
I had an amazing week physically but not emotionally and mentally good. I don't feel the peace in me anymore. I am always cautious in what I am doing. Everything does not come naturally for me anymore. There is a lot in my mind until I do not know what is it that keeps pulling me down. Until now, I still do not know what is it that is throwing me to the ground but what I do know is I felt peace in my heart.
I guess I need to be reminded once in a while, in fact everybody needs to be reminded as well in one way or another that they are worth more than anything or anybody else. All I do when I reach Ipoh is find a good comfortable couch, lie down, put on my earphones, plugged it in to my phone, let the songs play , close my eyes and think. Questions like " why am I put in this situation? " " Why is it that I have to go through the same situation with different people? " " Where is the one? " was in my head.
and guess what? Soon before I know it, a song entitled "Shelter" by Corrinne May is played and I can say that it is the only song that put a stop to what I am thinking and concentrate on the lyrics to the song. I suddenly feel at peace and I smiled. Teared a little bit but I quickly wipe it off because there are people in the house. Call me crazy but after that, I decided to get back up, chill with my cousin, hang out with sister and not just lay down and be some anti-social freak. haha
Corrinne May is a Singaporean who is currently based in LA to pursue her music career. She is a singer, song-writer, plays guitar and piano as well. She is a Christian and have already published 4 albums. =)
I am currently inlove with her songs from the album called " Beautiful Seed" . I would like to share with you the lyrics. It is really meaningful. Everytime I listen to the song, I feel alive. =)
What's wrong, whats getting you down
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red
I know you've been through rough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at tour door
You don't have to be alone
Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend
We share a bond
You and I we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone
Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend
It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll
call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend
.............Blessed Day................ <3 <3
Thursday, September 20, 2012
ITS JUST NOT WORTH IT!
Today, after a long time, I received a message from you. I should be feeling happy but on the other hand, I don't at all and we end up fighting instead. After so many days of thinking, I decided to just let everything be how it is right now, I felt so much better.
When i decided to take a step to know one better, something must happen. This is life right. I do not want to feel stupid at all. I do not know how important I am to you. I cant be telling my personal story to someone who does not bother right? I though I know that person well enough, but actually I don't. Things just changed, I cant help it but to accept it. I do not want to be sad about this same old boring situation all over again. IT IS JUST NOT WORTH IT!
Furthermore, I know everything happens for a reason. I have no intentions in making everything right because I have given up of taking the lead already. Saying that I must do my part also? You just never realized that I did my part over and over again and everytime I said " hi ", no response! So why bother right?
More so, I feel a little bit light after telling that person how I feel about everything. There is no one for me to blame and I am not blaming anybody for whats happening, because at the end of the day, Its my mindset that leads me in making the right choice. Btw, its not about someone I like but this is base on my friendship with some people. Silly me for thinking that people would use me just to gain something. haha. But then, I'm growing and i'm still learning. I pray that I am walking the right path and the path and I want to walk right now is the path where God leads me. Other than that path, they can just collect dust and don't bother thinking that I would even take a step on it.
It is difficult to forget something or someone who is very important to us. I think that we don't have to forget that person, we just have to push him to someplace in our heart that it is not that important. That way, we can welcome new things and people in our life but still not abandon someone who use to be close to us and do not appreciate us at all. Sometimes, we don't have to dislike or hate that person, what I mean is always have a forgiving heart. At least I did my part as a girl who wants to be like her Daddy In Heaven. And if that person apologize, its up to us to take the risk whether to start again or move on. But then again, make the decision that is best for you and that person and don't regret it. I have made mine and there is no turning back. Have you?
Come to think about it, life is very interesting. One day, it can be the happiest day our our life and the next day can be the worst day of our life. It does not matter what comes everyday because what matters the most is we do something that will not let us regret in the future. In fact, when future comes and when I reminisce my past, I want to laugh about it and not say " I should not have done it ".
Everybody has something that they want to change in their lives, ITS NEVER TOO LATE because EVERYDAY is a brand NEW DAY ( for someone who sincerely want to change ). Goodnight! =) <3
When i decided to take a step to know one better, something must happen. This is life right. I do not want to feel stupid at all. I do not know how important I am to you. I cant be telling my personal story to someone who does not bother right? I though I know that person well enough, but actually I don't. Things just changed, I cant help it but to accept it. I do not want to be sad about this same old boring situation all over again. IT IS JUST NOT WORTH IT!
Furthermore, I know everything happens for a reason. I have no intentions in making everything right because I have given up of taking the lead already. Saying that I must do my part also? You just never realized that I did my part over and over again and everytime I said " hi ", no response! So why bother right?
More so, I feel a little bit light after telling that person how I feel about everything. There is no one for me to blame and I am not blaming anybody for whats happening, because at the end of the day, Its my mindset that leads me in making the right choice. Btw, its not about someone I like but this is base on my friendship with some people. Silly me for thinking that people would use me just to gain something. haha. But then, I'm growing and i'm still learning. I pray that I am walking the right path and the path and I want to walk right now is the path where God leads me. Other than that path, they can just collect dust and don't bother thinking that I would even take a step on it.
It is difficult to forget something or someone who is very important to us. I think that we don't have to forget that person, we just have to push him to someplace in our heart that it is not that important. That way, we can welcome new things and people in our life but still not abandon someone who use to be close to us and do not appreciate us at all. Sometimes, we don't have to dislike or hate that person, what I mean is always have a forgiving heart. At least I did my part as a girl who wants to be like her Daddy In Heaven. And if that person apologize, its up to us to take the risk whether to start again or move on. But then again, make the decision that is best for you and that person and don't regret it. I have made mine and there is no turning back. Have you?
Come to think about it, life is very interesting. One day, it can be the happiest day our our life and the next day can be the worst day of our life. It does not matter what comes everyday because what matters the most is we do something that will not let us regret in the future. In fact, when future comes and when I reminisce my past, I want to laugh about it and not say " I should not have done it ".
Everybody has something that they want to change in their lives, ITS NEVER TOO LATE because EVERYDAY is a brand NEW DAY ( for someone who sincerely want to change ). Goodnight! =) <3
Monday, September 17, 2012
MY HOBBY
Today's post is about a hobby of mine. I dint even know that it was my hobby to fold stars until a few months back. I went for a drink with a few friends last Friday and I brought back a bottle because it came across my mind that I can fill the bottle with the stars that I folded. When I came home, I felt so excited and looking forward to put in the stars. Quickly washed the bottle, left it to dry for a day and woala!
When I was filling it a little by little, I felt so happy and also wish that I had the paper to fold. I also realized that I can spend my whole day folding. Looking at all the colorful stars makes me feel like I have a lots of wishes to make. funny right! Let me tell you a story. I used to fold around 700 stars in 3 days for a guy that I used to like for his Christmas present. Silly huh? I wasted 700 stars by giving it to someone who does not appreciate it. I wish to take it back.
Now, everyday when I see the bottle, I would think that by one day, I will want to have a glass cabinet to just display all types of glass bottle from big to small of different shape and sizes. It will be so beautiful huh? =) I'm dreaming already. That's all for today! Goodnight! <3
When I was filling it a little by little, I felt so happy and also wish that I had the paper to fold. I also realized that I can spend my whole day folding. Looking at all the colorful stars makes me feel like I have a lots of wishes to make. funny right! Let me tell you a story. I used to fold around 700 stars in 3 days for a guy that I used to like for his Christmas present. Silly huh? I wasted 700 stars by giving it to someone who does not appreciate it. I wish to take it back.
Now, everyday when I see the bottle, I would think that by one day, I will want to have a glass cabinet to just display all types of glass bottle from big to small of different shape and sizes. It will be so beautiful huh? =) I'm dreaming already. That's all for today! Goodnight! <3
Friday, September 14, 2012
IDEAL GUY/GIRL
I am pretty sure everybody have their own ideal guy/girl in their mind. Handsome,beautiful, tall, thin,rich, successful, loving and so much more. Majority will assume that their ideal guy/ girl do not exist in this world. For those who are single, some will be looking for the right one, some thinks that they do not need a man for a meantime. So, whats your ideal partner? What is the one thing that people are looking for in the man or the woman.
I have a mentor, and she told me one thing that made me realized that I will want to have that kind or boy in my life. She said " find a boy that can make you a better girl". Nobody is perfect in this world and if the guy/girl can make you a better person, you know that that person is the right one.
I always tend to find for the right guy that can make me feel that I am a good person, but after really thinking about it, I realized that it is not about finding but believing that God will provide me the right one, someone that I will want to spend with for the rest of my life. Furthermore, I always think that we have to be patient and not always seeking that but it come naturally. A relationship starts from a good friendship. I always believe that if it is meant to be, the door will always be open.
Coming from experience of liking a guy without having a friendship relationship with him for more than a year, I have come to my senses that he is not the guy for me. As for now, we are good friends and I liked it to be this way and do not feel to go more than that. We will only realized at the end of the day, the reason why some situation happens. I already have the definition of my very own ideal guy? Do you?
Love? What is the definition of love? As for me, the best definition of love is stated in the bible. In 1 Corinthians 12:4-8 says " Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. " The best place to start to love one another is at home. If we cannot develop our love for our family, we will never know how to love when we step out from our house door.
Let me end this post with another two verses that I love,
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
- Ephesians 4:2
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
- 1 John 4:18
Love? What is the definition of love? As for me, the best definition of love is stated in the bible. In 1 Corinthians 12:4-8 says " Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. " The best place to start to love one another is at home. If we cannot develop our love for our family, we will never know how to love when we step out from our house door.
Let me end this post with another two verses that I love,
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
- Ephesians 4:2
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
- 1 John 4:18
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
THE ART OF LIFE
Life in the beginning is like a big, huge, and very very long white paper. When we were brought into this world by our beloved mother who carried us for 9 months, our life is that piece of big, huge, very long paper. As a baby, our parents is the one who started to put some colors into our big piece of paper. Whether its black white, whether we liked it or not, we still have no control in our life. After 17 years of allowing our parents, friends, or even enemies to color on that big piece of paper of ours, its time to put some colors on our own. When we are happy as ever, we will paint white, blue, orange or even yellow. but when we are angry, disappointed or upset with something, black or sometimes red is the color that we will use.
But what we do not realized is everytime we paint black , all the beautiful colors that we use to paint before will be covered and that stain will be there forever. Life is very fragile and God knows when I've decided to start a new life without regretting anything I do. When temptation comes, when anger strikes, when tears starts to flow down, knowing that all the beautiful colors will be gone soon, I know that there is a better way to solve all this. I am a catholic, therefore I have the Bible to save me. Jeremiah 29:11 says " For I know the plans I have for you, plans to welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope " . This verse have saved me from so so many incident and I know in my heart and soul, that He is in control!
He gave me a beautiful family, a home, true friends, opportunity to study and so so many more. From my opinion, I want to appreciate life fully because I want to carry that piece of big, and long paper everywhere I go t show that my paper is filled with extraordinary and beautiful colors. Its ok to have a few spots of black paint because without that awful experience, I wont be who I am right now. I know that I am growing. We cant blame those who tries to give us extra black paint, afterall, it is our choice whether to use it or just dump into the dumpster. Because its not when I take revenge that I will win the battle, but it is when I take the step to not care and to be the more matured one.
So, LETS ENJOY LIFE TO THE MAXIMUM and when bad incident strikes, know that there is always a way to end it fabulously. =) Yesterday is the past, today is the present and tomorrow is a mystery but everyday is a new beginning.
But what we do not realized is everytime we paint black , all the beautiful colors that we use to paint before will be covered and that stain will be there forever. Life is very fragile and God knows when I've decided to start a new life without regretting anything I do. When temptation comes, when anger strikes, when tears starts to flow down, knowing that all the beautiful colors will be gone soon, I know that there is a better way to solve all this. I am a catholic, therefore I have the Bible to save me. Jeremiah 29:11 says " For I know the plans I have for you, plans to welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope " . This verse have saved me from so so many incident and I know in my heart and soul, that He is in control!
He gave me a beautiful family, a home, true friends, opportunity to study and so so many more. From my opinion, I want to appreciate life fully because I want to carry that piece of big, and long paper everywhere I go t show that my paper is filled with extraordinary and beautiful colors. Its ok to have a few spots of black paint because without that awful experience, I wont be who I am right now. I know that I am growing. We cant blame those who tries to give us extra black paint, afterall, it is our choice whether to use it or just dump into the dumpster. Because its not when I take revenge that I will win the battle, but it is when I take the step to not care and to be the more matured one.
So, LETS ENJOY LIFE TO THE MAXIMUM and when bad incident strikes, know that there is always a way to end it fabulously. =) Yesterday is the past, today is the present and tomorrow is a mystery but everyday is a new beginning.
INTRODUCTION
It has been almost a year since I've blogged. At 2am this morning, the word "blogging" came in to my mind and somehow I find myself knowing that I have so much to write about. I don't think it was a coincident. Since I love to think and could not control it, might as well put it in words. Not a bad idea afterall. haha. I am not a professional blogger or writer, therefore excuse my English and writing skills. I do not wish to receive any critism about what am I writing because like what I said earlier, I write what I think. There is no right or wrong answer if we are giving opinions because different people have different way of thinking. Other than that, ENJOY! =)
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