CHRISTMAS

    The one time of the year I love the most, is the month that I cherish more than the other 11 months. I love how busy I am doing something I love during the month of December and it never gets old every year. Its the only time in the year where we can hear the bell rings, colorful and bright lights are hung up everywhere, big decorations, Snow man, Santa Claus, Rain Deer in every shopping mall in the world. It is the one time of the year where everybody loves, yes! CHRISTMAS is NEAR! Christmas is in 25 more days.

    Other than the beautiful decorations, year end sales in shopping malls, the reason to purchase a new outfit, get a new look, opportunity to receive presents, it is also one time of the year where families have a reason to gather and celebrate. BUT what is more important here is the the real reason why Christmas Day exist. Its Jesus's birthday! We all have birthdays and on our birthdays, we hope to be the center spot of everything and Jesus deserve that spot on that very precious day. This year, I want to make Christmas even special. Its not about new clothes anymore or presents but it is about knowing the true meaning of that special day. December is also a month of Advent in the Catholic Church. Here are a passage that I read online and I think it explains really well :

The month of December is filled with expectation and celebration. Preparation is the key word for the first 24 days of December. Everyone is getting ready for Christmas — shopping and decorating, baking and cleaning. Too often, however, we are so busy with the material preparations that we lose sight of the real reason for our activity.

Christmas is a Christian feast — and we must reclaim it as such! In the same way that a family eagerly prepares for a baby, so in Advent should we prepare for the coming of the Christ Child. We should keep Advent as a season of waiting and longing, of conversion and of hope and keep our thoughts on the incredible love and humility of our God in taking on the flesh of the Virgin Mary. Let us not forget to prepare a peaceful place in our hearts wherein our Savior may come to dwell.

The best person we can turn to for help during Advent is Mary, Christ's and our Mother. She awaited the day of His birth with more eagerness than any other human being. Her preparation was complete in every respect. Let's crown our preparation and borrow something of Mary's prayerfulness, her purity and whole-hearted submission to God's will.

The Advent wreath is one of the most popular symbols used by Christians during the season of Advent. These wreaths, consisting of a circle of evergreen branches set around four candles, are used in both churches and Christian homes. The evergreen circle stands for the eternal life that Christ has won for all believers. The burning candles represents the coming of Christ as the light of the world. The first candle, or the Prophet Candle, symbolizes the hope and anticipation of Christ's coming in the flesh. The second candle recalls how Christ appeared in the flesh in humble manner, being born of a virgin in the insignificant village in Bethlehem. The third candle is known as the Shepherds Candle. It recalls the rejoicing of the shepherds when they departed after having seen the Christ-child in the stable. The fourth candle is the Angels Candle. It reminds us of the heavenly host that announced the good news of our Savior's birth. 

I am also reading this passage for the first time and it amazed me and give me the yearning to wanting to know more about Advent. I am so excited to walk and experience my journey to Christmas. The room are brighter, my food are tastier, the weather are better, I am definitely happier. Blessed Day..=)

A TURNOVER

     My grandma, aunty, brother and myself left for KL on Thursday evening. I am taking this opportunity to relax for the last time before my finals and also to shop for everything I need. Praise God, I got everything I need for a affordable price except for jeans. Still can't find a perfect one. I had so much fun walking and shopping with both of my aunties and also I got to escape for a while to just have some time for myself. hehe.
Unfortunately something which I dint expect happened. Somebody pick pocket my phone! For all I know, it is one of those times where my heart just fell, my hands was shaking and all that was in my mind is why must this happen how am I going to tell my dad? It happened approximately 10 minutes before we all left 1Utama.

fyi: Do not ever stop and wait at a bakery called Lavender in 1Utama unless if you just need to purchase a few buns and leave.

  Similar cases has happened for the past 2 weeks and all the phones that are stolen is expensive. How stupid that somehow the stealer steals phones instead of wallets. I guess phones worth more than wallets nowadays. Anyway, may God bless that person. What comes around, goes around. My mood just changes since and it was a Saturday night already. A day before we come back. I spend my night trying not to think about it and keep myself occupied by folding stars, talking to cousin and pray that this was all just a dream.
Unfortunately, it is not. The next day, I manage to watch Breaking Dawn with both of my cousins before leaving. The movie is awesome as ever and I am going to watch it again, that's for sure. But I tell myself that I would watch it if I think I deserve a break from studying.

    I always enjoy being in the bus for hours but not this time. Instead, I feel depressed. All I want to do at that time is just quickly reach home, unpack and just stay on my bed forever. I have not felt like this for a very long time. You know that feeling of not wanting to live anymore? I expected the next day to be a great day ( got a new S3) but no. It was until my mum founds out that my sis scratch the car. It was a turnover! It became from a good day to the worst day ever. I wont elaborate much on it as it is personal. Going to bed crying is not the feeling anybody wants to feel especially when you have a seat for a test at 8am the next day. My eyes can barely even open.

   Then I got reminded again that something greater is going to happen soon in God's time. I just have to surrender to God everything and He is going to take care of it. It reminds me of a story. In a boys life, he always can see 2 sets of footprint on the beach and one of them belongs to God but when he is going through a lowest point of his life, he only can see one set of footprint and he thought that God was not there when he needed Him the most until he realized that it is because God was carrying him. and there i was, going through another turnover which is believing that God was carrying me. I knew I was home. I know I can turn to someone. I know He is the one. I knew God is not like anybody else. I knew that God is crying with me through the night and today I felt so much better.

    I manage to wake up and sit for my test, had a good laugh with friends during stats class while doing questions and I am happy that my dad is home. Eventhough things are not in the right place now, but I know it will eventually be. I just have to ask for an extra supernatural strength from God and patience and continue to have faith in Him. Afterall, nothing is impossible for God. =)

I want to end this post with a song from Mandisa. I heard it for the first time in the bus on my way to KL and its beautiful. It is for all of God's children out there who thinks that crying makes a situation worst, but truth of be told, It is not. It makes us think better. God does not want us to act strong in front of Him. It is when we are at the lowest point of our lives, it is when we are desperately in need of someone, He will reveal himself to us and He will fill our hearts with his love, joy and strength. If we open our heart and welcome Him in to our lives.

 

Why you gotta act so strong?
Go ahead and take off your brave face
Why you telling me that nothing's wrong
It's obvious your not in a good place
Who's telling you to keep it all inside
And never let those feelings
Get past the corner of your eye

You don't need to run
You don't need to speak
Baby take some time
Let those prayers roll down your cheek
It maybe tomorrow
You'll be past the sorrow
But tonight it's alright
Just cry

I know you know your Sunday songs
A dozen verses by memory
Yeah they're good but life is hard
And days get long
You gotta know God can handle your honesty
So feel the things your feeling
Name your fears and doubts
Don't stuff your shame and sadness, loneliness and anger
Let it out, let it out

You don't need to run
You don't need to speak
Baby take some time
Let those prayers roll down your cheek
It maybe tomorrow
You'll be past the sorrow
But tonight it's alright

Just cry
Just cry

It doesn't mean you don't trust him
It doesn't mean you don't believe
It doesn't mean you don't know
He's redeeming everything.

You don't need to run
You don't need to speak
Baby take some time
Let those prayers roll down your cheek
It maybe tomorrow
You'll be past the sorrow
But tonight it's alright
But tonight it's alright

Just cry

Why you gotta act so strong
Go ahead and take off your brave face

MESSAGE...

He meant the world to me. He is the creator of Heaven and Earth. We are all created by Him.
He is my Father,
He is my everlasting love,
He is my best friend,
He is the author of my book of life,
He is my love story,
He is also my love song,
He is my joy when I am angry
He is my strength when I am weak
He is my laugh,
He is my peace when I am confused
He is my everything,
He is my counselor,
He is my healer,
He is my sweet sweet smile
He is my boyfriend.


I do not want to miss Him because I want to feel Him everyday. If I cry, I want to cry because of the amount of things He did for me. If I get angry, I want to be angry because of what people criticize about Him, If I am confused, I want to be confused about what He wants me to do in my life. He is always here with me. He knows when to comfort me, He knows when I need a friend the most, He knows when to fill me with His love and warmth. He fill my life with a lot of interesting situations because He knows I am able to go through it. He already know who will my life partner be. How can someone not accept and love Him. He is my ALL.   No words can ever describe how amazing He is. No matter how much I neglected him, He waits for me at the doorstep to my heart and life. He is a father, boyfriend, and a best friend that everyone wants. He worth everything to me. =)

I will be crazy not to write these down.. Told you that I will write anything that comes in to my mind.. =) Blessed Day people. God bless you. xoxo.. =)

DISSAPEARING

    At times like this, I just feel like disappearing. I want to go a place where nobody knows me and a place where I do not have to do anything that will stressed me out. Finals is less than a month and I feel like crap. Even today's weather is confuse and that makes me even more worst. Speaking of finals, I do not know where to start. I actually start studying few weeks ago but until today, it seems like nothing goes in. Plus, my body is not helping me either. Having headache since yesterday night. Just took a panadol and I know I am going to fall asleep soon. I have a assignment to finish by tomorrow and even though I just have the last bit to accomplish, I have no idea what else to write. Can this day be any worse.!!! Thinking about tomorrow makes me not want to wake up forever. I have class from 10am to 5pm. What a day. But lucky me , I am going to watch a movie with sister and Chery and I am just looking forward to it.

    As for now, I just have to endure whatever that I am feeling right now and surrender it to God and pray that tomorrow will be a better day. I feel a little bit much better after writing it down. haha. Just received 6 sets of Statistics pass year paper!!! Gonna try to do it tonight.  Anyway, have a blessed day! I am sure your day is better than mine. =)

ALL THE BEST!

FOR DEAREST PEI YING!

Credit to Najah, she is the one who suggested that we could make her something that she can keep forever starting with STPM. 

Just want to wish you all the very best in your STPM. You can do it! I know you can. Time is going to pass pretty fast and by the time you finish, my finals is not over yet.. =/ hahaha.. <3 <3

and to all the rest who will be sitting for STPM tomorrow. All the very best to you guys. sleep early, rest well and don't pee in your pants. 

ONE WEEK

13.11.2012. DEEPAVALI.

It is my very first open house I have ever visited in my 19 years of my life. 

I was a little bit excited, wondering what should I wear for the open house, whether or not I should bring anything. Being so paranoid. At last, I found this blue dress which I bought from greeenbananas.blogspot.com few years back and I am still loving this dress. It is comfortable and cooling as well. The cloth is not thick but just right even on a hot and sunny weather. =)

I am not a fan of Indian food but I have to admit that the food that was served in my friend, Haminis house was awesome. So tasty, especially the mutton and salad. Its nothing like what I have tasted before. The sugar tosai that Haminis mum made was delicious. =)

Stayed there for about one hour plus and I have to go. She look so beautiful that day and I love her attire. So nice to have her as a friend.=) 

14.11.2012. STUDY DAY

Finally, its one of those days where I can sleep a little longer. hehe. Woke up, clean the house, have lunch and just wait for my friend Adele to pick me up. 

We went to E-gate with 2 others, Kelly and Brendan. Adele was busy with her assignment, Brendan helped her, Kelly was busy listing her whole family. Eurasians sure do have a huge and bigggg family. Sometimes, you just forget their names too. haha

I was busy with statistics. I am not good in numbers but I have to force myself to practice as finals is in less than a month.. Tension die me! 

First time trying the Marinara Ball in subway and I dint expect that it would taste good. Unfortunately, its one of the most unhealthy sub of the day. =/ 

 Stayed there for about 4 and a half hours and its time to go home. 

15.12.2012. PY SUPRISE BDAY IN ADVANCE

Pei Ying's original bday is on the 25th of November and since her STPM is starting tomorrow and we do not want to disturb her until she is done with STPM, we decided to throw her a suprise bday before her STPM. 

It is not very fancy or what not but just KFC and 3 pieces of cake from Cake Story.

One benefit of throwing a surprise bday wayyy earlier than the original date is that the bday girl wont realized or suspect anything..=) haha

Friendship that will never end. Friendship that will last forever. =) 

Sometimes, the less the merrier.

We celebrated at Najah's USM dorm and while looking around, I saw this (the picture below)

Compare 3 years back and today. =) *missing Li Ann*

I sometimes wish I could go back to F5.  Not the part where I have to take SPM but to repeat all the silly things we did in school. Pissing teachers off, making classmates laugh by doing some performance in front of the class after recess and act like the school belongs to us. 

16.11.2012. TGIF and PDYD 2

Went to the gym in the morning with PY and Najah to burn some calories before adding more calories for lunch. haha

Since few of us are available for lunch, we meet up for lunch at TGIF, Queensbay. 

It was only Brendan and his girlfriend, Cavina ( they look super sweet and cute together ), Mark, Adele and myself. 

Adele and I shared the Mac and Cheese.

We were like the noisiest group there in TGIF. Fooling ourselves and just talk whatever.

I wrote this as my caption for this picture in insta :

" Don't blame him that he loves lemon. He is from Sarawak and he lives on trees. He travel place by place by swinging. Introducing Brendan Lo from Kuching. " So funny. I wonder how people can come up with the idea that Kuching people live on trees. LOL

We left Queens at about 4pm. Dint have time to rest. Came home and I have to start getting ready for church. Cathedral of the Holy Spirit was jam packed. It was filled with youth from a few states in Malaysia. 1000 youths came together and celebrate Penang Diocese Youth Day II. It is a 3 day event filled with lots of activities and talks. 

As the musicians prepare themselves for praise and worship, look what caught their eyes. 4 electric guitars standing side by side, always ready to be played. The owners treat them like it was their baby or wife. but it is a good picture. =) #photo bomb

Did not stay there very long. After the praise and worship, a few of us went to MCD  just for the air cone. We were sweating like pigs in church. haha. 

Had lots of fun. 

17.11.2012. DANCE PRACTISE and TALENT NIGHT.

Its a pretty exhausting day. Was out from 9am to 1am. 

Went to work until 2pm and then dad drop me to church straight away for dance practise. 

Had to stay back for mass because I was on duty and I was like half asleep during mass. 

Dinner at the coffee shop opposite Liverpool and then back to church for the Talent Night where all the youth will perform. . There were 15 groups all together and they were split according to churches. 

The night did not end there. A bunch of us then went to Starbucks, E-gate for supper. 

 This is us 3 before mass. Feeling tired, exhausted and sleepy all in one time. haha

Never the less, it was a beautiful week. My last day of work is today, Class restart tomorrow, Study break 2 weeks, and Finals in less than month. A short trip to KL would be nice and I am looking forward to it..=)

Blessed night. * going back to assignment* <3

WEEKEND

FRIDAY.

Its been a super long time since I have to wake up at 6.30am and I am glad that there is two other people who is willing to wake up at 6.30am just to accompany me to make passport. 

Our journey started at 7am when I fetched Ryan first then to Adele's house to pick her up and off we go. 

I wonder why is there so many people in the building everyday? Don't they have to go to work or something? haha

My passport picture that I took outside could not be used so we have to line up to take a new picture. Everybody there is like still in their sleep but 3 of us are like monkeys, making so much of noise and laughing so loudly. haha

After hours of filling up the form, waiting for my turn to pass up the form and then pay, finally we can go have fun a little bit around town. 

First stop, Tea Garden. Had a drink and played Jengga. All time favorite game. haha

 Then we decided to head to Armenian Street to see some of the street arts since Ryan have not been there before..=)

As usual, acting like a tourist who just came down from U.K and its so funny that the people actually buy it. LOL. They even tell us about Batu Feringgi, saying that we must go and all especially at night. haha

Things that was sold. =) Pretty cheap. 

While walking, we spot this man playing a very old and antique music instrument. Amazing..=)

Every single time I visit Armenian Street, I must visit this place for a break. Homemade ice cream and trust me, its freaking delicious! 

We had butterscotch and Strawberry Sorbet.=) <3

Oh yes, we also shared a Salted Caramel Cheese cake..=) It taste as good as it sounds. yummmy.

First time seeing a pool in a shop? LOL. ( Took this picture from the back window)

and finally, its done! I am not going back there for the next 5 years! Holiday, here I come! haha =)

I am so blessed to have Adele and Ryan to accompany me on that day. Its very tiring but its worth it and I really did had fun! =)

Nope, dint went back home. Followed Liann to get her fringe cut and while waiting for her, I received a call from the people and he say that I left my IC there. GREAT! I have to go all the way back down to take my IC. Liann then came up to study, had dinner together and then head to Church until midnight. 

SATURDAY. 

I had no choice but to wake up at 8am because I promise my aunty and grandma that I would help out in the  Malaysian Eurasian Games 2012 which was held in College General.

My aunty and grandma is selling cakes and souvenir and they need my help in selling. 

Grandma ( in pink ) brought 2 of her friends along to help out. We were quite early. haha

Me, feeling sweaty and just waiting for time to pass so I could go home and take a nice bath then to church. haha

Chery was there too..=)

Eurasians from Singapore, Melaka and one more state came down to participate in the event.  This picture was taken during the opening ceremony. =)

Not quite interested in events like this but oh well, its over and i'm happy. haaha

SUNDAY. 

Wake up early again because I have t go to work in the morning. After that, meet up with bestfriend, Najah Zahry to do PY's gift as well as plan for her early suprise bday ( will blog about it soon ).

About 4pm, head to church to just see whats happening and somehow I ended up in the kitchen helping out the mothers to prepare tea for the youth. First time rolling Kuih Ketayap. Its was a great time..

After tea break, we all went up to the room where the youth gather and have their sessions and watch a movie called "For Greater Glory". It was an eye opening movie. If you have a happen to see this movie anywhere int he future, buy and watch it. Its beautiful and amazing. You will never regret. It is base on a true story about a 14 year old boy and see how he hold on his faith and strongly believe in his religion.

When we are faithful in small little things like obeying and honoring our parents, God will provide us greater things. Things that you don't expect to receive. \

 The duration of the movie is 2 hours and by the time movie ended, its dinner time. =)

We are just having fun. haha

Weekend is over! Time to concentrate in my studies. 

Beautiful weekend I have with great people..=)

Blessed Morning.. =)